2days more ~~

2 days more and is time to back to my sweet hometown, TI~ somehow i dun feel lk going back is coz of those incident tat happened pass few weeks. 2days more, wat should i do at ti? shopping? but alone so dowan.. frens gathering? i dun think they back yet. Bf? He at kl haven back yet. i thk suppose that time i should jz stay at home, emo for the whole day, on9? dota? haiz.. overall, i thk should be sien till my bro back from ns.

I miss him, he went for ns for few weeks ady. wonder will he get used with the life at there onot? somehow i thk he can do it, i trust him. Will bring him to hv lotsa fun after he back from ns. My bf n i feel the same after our both brother went for ns, which is lonely. No one argue wit us anymore, no one let us tease or tease ur back, every9 dun hv some1 sleep nearby u. This time, we missed our bro so much.

Jz drop by to write smth, or else my dear bei sure will keep remind me to update my blog while i am so lazy to do so.. wahaha

laziness never change~

the last day @.@

2day is the last day for my semester holiday and I gonna back to sabah 2ml noon. Ak5108, 2.15pm flight, AIR ASIA can u please delay the flight for few more days? I knw is impossible~ >.<

5.13pm, i reached home after fetch my bei back home. I spend a memorable moment with him, i really appreciate wat HE gave me. At least 2day i din gotcha for the whole day and i manage to see my bei b4 i back Sabah, thz to YOU. We enjoyed, We laughed, but i cried.. Cried alot, Cried till the tears none stop, cries till i dunno when should i stop~ Luckily he was beside me, console me, wipe my tears, joke wit me. This is wat i like him, he do knw hw 2make me laugh, he bring laughter to my life, bring hapiness to my daily routine.

I really dun feel like going back to sabah because TI is such a memorable place for me.

I think alot for the whole nite, whether wat should i do for the next step? I dont want any one hurt in this case, mayb should i be the one that sacrifies? At least, she wont sad, he wont suffer, they wont worry. Rite? But i dun think is the time to make that decision, so let it be~ Let HIM to decide, let the time to prove, let everything be alright for this very moment. I BELIEVE~

it's finally come~

2day was a bad day for me, i am so bad luck trough out the whole day.. feel so depressed feel so helpless.. morning, i split something on my bed sheet so i have it 2wash the bed sheet n bed n comforter. i was so fed up at tat moment, wonder y am i so bad luck. but the bad luck haven end, it bring forward 2the evening. Saf, my bf came 2find me at noon. He want me 2acc him to cut his hair, the salon din open so i decided 2went for drive tru Mcd for my lunch. Who knws rain starting 2pour and mum called n find me while i am at town, so i hv 2ask my bf 2rush back. while Saf was rushing back, the coke suddenly pour over his car. No matter how, i ask him not2 worry and i wil settle for him after reach my home. act i ady starting 2feel weird wit all the incident tat happen on 2day. all the bad things came in the same time making me so stress.

The main problem finally comes. which is when Saf in front my house while v cleaning, my mum back 2fetch my neighbour aunty 2settle some problem. She saw us, she act nothing which makes me even more worried. I dunno how, dunno wat 2do. i was blank, i needed help so much at tat moment but no one can help me. not even him. but i knw it wasn't his problem, he cant do much thing coz i dowan us 2hurt mum. She back, i tried 2chat wit her. yet, she act differently this time, she scold me. This time it really hurt me alot, is alot.. wat ever she said make me feel so disappointed. She ask me 2choose between her n Saf, if i choose him she will not acknowledge me as her daughter. Yet, if want she 2accept him except she die. I wonder y she can say till like this? izit a big problem just to be with him? he is not a bad guy so y u jz cant accept him?

i love my mum but i wonder y she can treat me like this. izit really to be faith tat i hv 2 break up wit him? but he treat me very good and i love him. act i very hope that he can do something, i feel so unprotected but i un i un.. is not his fault, so nvm.. i will settle it my own since Mrs kok oso say is my family problem. i think wateva decision i make, i need 2 bare it myself.

i believe HE knw hw much i suffer, please do leave some sympathy for me..