~Dilemma~

Suddenly few options given and I am in

Dilemma..

I don't know to which option should I take

I am totally no idea which path will bring me to what ending

Option No1.
Advantages
Stay and do not change anything.
Remain the same with higher benefits
Market Value will be higher
Permanent job and flexi time

Disadvantages
Have to packed with time line due to the project is in a mess
Deal with a superior which is hard to please
Agreement and benefits given is verbally and not in Black and White stated

Option No2.
Advantages
Higher pay than the current job
Location wise nearer
Nice superior to work with

Disadvantages
New environment to be adapt
Need to sharpen up my programming language (which i not really like it)
Still in probation period

Option No3.
Advantages
Certification obtain is very high market value
Future wise will be better due to the certificate provided
Colleague + superior is nice to deal with
Working environment is cozy

Disadvantages
Is one year contract and do not have 100% guarantee of converting to permanent staff
Certification given is still depends on the company


How? Tell me how??

untitled

Don’t expect any positive feedback from this post.

Everywhere I saw/heard ppl complain about how Police react on 709 but do they understand or know some of them are actually not willingly to be the part of it. 

They are just following orders and doing their job.

22th June 2011

HAPPY~

BCOZ
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IT'S

 OUR

4TH

ANNIVERSARY

TODAY~
 -22 JUNE 2011-



To my SPECIAL HIM,

there are only THREE words which I will never get tired of telling you..

I LOVE YOU

FOREVER...

Count Down

Start counting down to the day...

14 days to go.....

Have you ever been so BAD LUCK?

2011-04-14 I HATE YOU!!!!

Have you ever been so bad luck?

7.45am Wake up from bed and get ready because have to conduct a walk through with user at 9am at Menara Maxis (KLCC)

8.00am Have the feeling that will be late to the meeting that's why choose to drive to KL Sentral then switch train to KLCC

BAD LUCK NO.1 = Caught in unusual traffic jam as I never facing such jam condition which took me 1 hour to reach KL Sentral (usually less than half and hour)

9.00am Reached KL Sentral and is confirm late for the meeting. Informed my PM I will be only reach in half and hour time and he told me the users has reached and all waiting for me.

BAD LUCK NO.2 = The Head of Department was there waiting for me as well as I am the presenter of the walk through. He is not an easy going person and I am in trouble now.

9.20am Reached Menara Maxis and apologize to the users. Start my presentation but... 

BAD LUCK NO.3 = My lappie gone 'crazy'  already and its not working when the time I need him!!! Change and using my co-worker laptop for the presentation.

11.30am Finish my presentation and walk through, went back to Plaza Sentral and...

BAD LUCK NO.4 = Found that my server is not working and I am unable to access it for production issue troubleshooting. 

12.00pm Asked my senior colleague for opinion and she suggested me to reboot the server at mid9. @##$%&^%@#@&@? WTH~~ I restarted the server before but is not at mid9 however she insist.. so..

BAD LUCK NO.5 = Scheduled the server reboot at 02:00 am and  I have to make sure the services and server are all up. After the server reboot, I still have to rectify the few problems which reported on the day before. It drag me until 3.30am.

2.00pm - 5.00pm Had my peacefully hours but it is not long..

5.30pm My 'beloved' called me up to ask some necessary questions which required the answer Immediately.

Went up to look for her and explained. Later on, she questioned on my job task (which we all hate the most because she has no faith to her staff). Stupid me, staying there as I wanted her to approve some of my UCRs.. and.. I felt into the trap..

6.00pm "Serena, do you familiar with the BPT master requirement?" 

"Not really, was involved before but later on lost track already.." 

"Is it? later i will have a walk through section with XXX on this. Can you please join?"

"Ok, SURE! (sigh.. shit you.. why you have to call up a discussion when people are preparing to go home?)"

BAD LUCK NO.6 Caught in discussion with the project team mates. Thanks to her, I only can leave at 9pm.

9.00pm Was worried about my car as i park in the car park where i have to give the car key to the PIC.

Ran down from office and SHIT~ It was raining!!!!

BAD LUCK NO.7 Why lar when I wanted to go back home then only rain like hell?

Forgot to bring my umbrella... called up for rescue - FAILED..

This is the first time I walked in RAIN.

9.30pm Charm sei, don't know how to cross the road as the cars speed and it was raining.

BAD LUCK NO.8 Just ran across the road and nearly knocked down by car.

9.45pm Finally got into my car and drive to find him. Waited for him until 10pm and I was asking to drive back first. And the tragedy started.....

SUPER BAD LUCK OF THE DAY..... BAD LUCK NO. 9 

I drive and I am pretty sure I din see anyone on my opposite so I just...drive.. "BOMMMM"

I KNOCKED DOWN A INDON LADY!!!!

I was so afraid at the moment I heard the sounds.. It was so loud and I thought I knocked the divider but when I see from side mirror.. There was a Indo Lady lying on the floor.. 

OMFG... I really never thought of I would ever knock down a person with car..

Although is just my side mirror knocked her down but I still feeling so uneasy as it is a HUMAN which i knocked down..

Got lectured by the lady..

"Saya sakit hati tau" (Of course I know, because I also heart pain when I knew that I knocked you down.)

"You orang kaya, saya orang miskin.. Saya masih ada anak tau.." ( I know aunty and I am truly sorry for knocking you down.. I seriously did not see you there and it was so dark..)

"You mau langgar mati saya ke?" ( I never wanted to knock you, aunty.. seriously.. i feel so bad when i see you lying there) 

"Jaga-jaga nanti bila you pandu.." ( aunty, please don't curse me as I seriously do not know you were walking passed by me..)

Luckily there was a motorcyclist came by and helped me to convince the aunty..

I paid her some money for the compensation and she yet to complain.. MANA CUKUP~ YOU INGAT I SIAPA AH~

Sigh.. Seriously thanks to the motorcyclist, she helped me to convinced the victim and finally she let me go.. 

But before she left..

"Kalau balik, I ada apa apa lagi, I akan report polis, tau~"

(Aunty, seriously.. I am very very sorry!!! Deep in my heart, I really worry that anything happen to her..

GOD~ Pray hard for her to be everything is fine...)

10.15pm Got lectured by him and was not allow to drive back as they all worried about my emotion after knock down someone. He fetch me home and I parked my car there.

BAD LUCK NO. 10 Before entering the car, I knock my head on the door. SHIT DAMN IT~~

10.20pm While on the way back, noticed that I left my purse in my car. SIGH..

BAD LUCK NO.11 Drove back and take my purse.

10.45pm Reached home and bath. After calm down, looking for my certificates and...

BAD LUCK NO.12 Noticed I left my certs at my hometown.. sigh.. called my parents to scan and email to me.

11.00 - 2.00 am Everything as normal until my reboot activities..

BAD LUCK NO.13 server reboot successfully but one of the ID is not working. 

Seriously, it is the most bad luck day which I ever have.. 

SO, I HATE YOU 2011-04-14

 

Note: To the lady which I knocked down, I am so so so so sorry. I know even no matter how many times i apologize to you is also useless.. BUT SERIOUSLY, i am truly very sorry for everything. Hopefully you are getting well soon and no serious injury happen on you.

I am sorry..

 

Love Story with A LIE..

This is a sad love story about a young man and woman who once met at a party. The girl was quite beautiful, as every man wanted her. The man was an average guy that no one really paid much attention too. After the party was over he got up the courage to invite her for a cup of coffee. She accepted his invitation and together they went and sat down in a small coffee shop. He was very nervous and did not say much, which made her feel a little uncomfortable when the young man finally spoke and ask the waiter to bring him some salt. He then took the salt and poured some into his coffee.

Many people began to stare at what the young man had done. His face began to turn red, but he continued to pour the salt into his cup of coffee. The young woman then asked him why did you put salt in your coffee. He then went on to tell her that when he was a young boy he lived near the ocean and how he loved playing in the salty water. So each time he has coffee he puts salt in it and it reminds him of his childhood days of living near the ocean and how much he missed his home town and his late parents too.

After listening to his story her eyes began to fill with tears. She was so touched by his story that seemed to come deep from inside his heart. She though a man who can tell about his feelings of being home sick and his inner feelings about his late parents has the kind of compassion that she just admired very much.

As time went on they began to date and she discovered just how kind-hearted, warm, caring, and what a loving person he was. She loved his sweet love words and love phrases that he always said to her. She thought how she almost missed out on getting together with him if it was not for the salty coffee. This story then became like so many other stories. They would go on to marry and would live happily for many years to come. Every time she made him a cup of coffee she would put salt into it as she knew he would always want it that way.

Thirty years went on by and he passed away and he left her a letter that she would read. It said, My dearest wife, I hope you will forgive me as I once told you a lie. It was the only lie I ever told you. Do you recall the very first time we had met. I was quite nervous with you sitting with me at the coffee shop. I wanted some sugar but instead I said salt. It was a mistake and also it was hard for me to admit it, so I just went along with it and let you think I really wanted salt instead of sugar, I was too embarrassed to tell you that part. And now that I am dying I need to tell you about this sad romantic story. I really did not like salt in my coffee, but I had salt in my coffee ever since we had met and I always knew I would never have any regrets or feel sorry for what I had done. Having you as my wife gave me the greatest happiness I had ever experienced in my whole life.

If I was able to live even a little longer I would still use salt in my coffee a second time and I would continue to love you as my wife even if I had to live a life again with the lie of drinking coffee with salt added to it. Tears filled up in her eyes as she thought some day somewhere someone may ask her just what does coffee taste like with salt added into it. She knew just what she would say. She would simply reply, it is so sweet.

...

Called him the day before yesterday. Knew that he is suffering for his condition but I could not help much. What I did was just encouragement which I believe could at least motivate him. He is always the one that I worried. He changed ever since “it” came to his life. Everything changed. He is no longer the person I know anymore. His self-confidence level is low and the “it” in him is getting serious and cause him a lot of trouble. He used to be independent and well-performed but everything changed and is because of her, he changed. I really do not know what can I do to help him out. What I can do now is pray hard for everything goes smooth for him.

I will always be with him no matter what happen.

Spotted @.@ ( Changed my post title due to some reason.. =P)

As u can see I am able to update my blog during working hours means...

I got nothing to do?

Nope, I just don't feel like doing anything.

Keep telling myself to focus on the

STACKS of documentations

But

FAILED~

So ended up crapping at here..

I have got my hair dyed yesterday and the result is OUT OF MY EXPECTATION!!!

The colour is too bright.. @.@

I dyed for him as well and hopefully he won't kena from his boss.. =P

Photo will be upload later..

Ever since I started my work at 'here',

I always be "friend" with the stacks of documentations.

Documents reading = blur

Application testing = more blur

Progress meeting = even more blur

Hope that I will be offer training as well

so that I could manage to catch up faster
and be a part of the team too..

=)

Love The Way You Lie

Recently I am so addicted to this song

LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

But

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.

I hate lies...

Sometimes,

I wonder

Why the person have to

Tell lies

While we all know

The ugly truth of

Them?

Lies

Is it the only way

To convince yourself

You are on the

Right Choice?

Lies

Actually causing you

Fooling yourself

Someone told me

When you dislike

Someone

Whatever the person did

You will still hate it

No matter what the reason is

Somehow

I do agree

Bored!!

Starting to get bored with the life that driving to work without him..

Bored + Sleepiness in the car = TORTURING

We used to have fun while we on our way to work

I was enjoyed and now...

I am alone and lonely and boring...

Currently in the office..

Doing what?

Waiting for my supervisor for the next discussion..

BUT..

The Tiredness + sleepiness is killing me..

I miss my bed..

zZZZzzZZZzzzzzzzz

just had the most wonderful weekend I ever had...

club, bbq, karaoke sessions..

I wonder when can I have this COMBO with my friends..

Arghh.. I miss them...

@.@

~avogardo~

Oh Gosh~ so tired and so lazy to go for work la~~
Basically I say this to him almost everyday before heading to work.
Ya, I have started my internship for around 2months and I am getting lazier.. =P
Why am I tired? because of daily travel from setapak all the way to bukit jalil..
Oh Gosh~ Save me!!

But as what he told me, nightmare will be end because we are moving!!
To where?
Serdang!!

p/s :: I am not staying there but just temporary..
Which mean I dun have to

Travel daily in the early morning
Dun have to wake up early daily
Dun have to wait for him to fetch me..

Haha~ I am happy~

O.M.G

While I was facebook'ng, I saw one video on a 14 years old girl got pregnant and their family dun even notice it. You might think this is the shocking news I am sharing? Nope, there is another one which really shock me. Due to curiosity, I click on youtube video and from there I found another video link which is a ONE year old girl got pregnant!!

When I watch the video, I was like O.M.G~ How could it happen? Then I google for whether is it possible that there might be more than one child facing this problem. Surprisingly, I found another one year old girl in Arab who also facing the same thing..

One year old child found Pregnant in Saudi Arabia. Doctors says it’s a unique case for this world!
Medical Science Report says : “When the mother of this child was pregnant, she had 2 foetuses inside her. But one of the foetus grew inside the other, this why this girl was born with the other foetus inside her womb.”

When I finish the articles, the first thought in my head was like

" How is the child going to give birth to the fetus that keep growing inside her body?"

"Should abortion allow in this case?"

"Getting a twins is actually not a happy ending after all.."

I just hope that the two little child will still live healthy in future and may there are doctors and professionals that able to help them to solve this problem.

In the office~

writing this post in the office as I got nothing to do.. My supervisor was on official trip and I am building spider web here...

My 3 weeks of KL life is basically just traffic jam, work, lunch, work, traffic jam, dinner, sleep.. so boring.. I starting to miss my uni life.. Once, someone told me to appreciate my uni life but I told him I might be prefer working life.. NO~~~ I prove myself wrong ady... The life is so dull and boring.. Arghhh.. but compare with OT and tonnes of assessments? I prefer to be free and easy... I dowan any OT!!!!! lolx..

Life in my office is like a gossip world.. The female colleagues sitting in front of me love gossip.. Gossip about anything that they would think of.. Maybe somehow one day.. I will turn into their position.. GOSSIPER.. lolx..

I miss my bed so much.. and i am so looking forward for this coming thursday as I AM GOING BACK HOME!!!! my lovely bed and my aircond!! but actually the room in Kl are not hot at all la.. is just that I want to merajuk for an air-cond. lolx..

boring~ yawn~ counting down 7 minutes and it will be my lunch time.. yipee.. sign off now..

Boy Friend? Nope...

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她。


也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。


特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？


很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......


关于爱情：
不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

Song of the day..

~The Rose~

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to blead

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of wakingthat never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

Happy 22nd Burthday to Myself~~

Finally, I pass by Parallel exam and so do my 22nd Birthday.. So sad because I'm finally turning to 22 already.. T_T

Firstly I wan to thanks to my bb hubby for the surprise he gave me straight on the 12am of my birthday.. It was really get me a shock because I did not know that he will give me surprise. He told me that he went for bath then I was suddenly dc which mean my video call stopped.. I still blame him for bath so slow and scared that will missed the 12am wish. However, I feel so touching because when I video call back with him, it was dark in his room and I saw CANDLES!!! I wonder did he really go n buy a cake? Then only I realise he put those candles on a CHIPSMORE.. So funny but it is so sweet.. I never thought he will give me that surprise..

Candles on the Chipsmore and Birthday Song that he sang to me.. Oh my, how I wish I am there with him at the moment.. I miss him..

Then, I would like to thanks to my housemates.. Thanks to them for giving me such a surprise birthday.. I always laugh when I think back Cheok Hoong reaction when he saw me and he could not do anything at the moment.. ESP he is wearing a mask.. Is so funny and memorable birthday experience I had..

I would also thanks to my Parents and brother. Thanks daddy and mummy, although u guys are not around with me in this Birthday again but I can always feel the existence of u guys in my heart.. I love you all..

Last but not least, I gotta thanks to all my friends out there who wished me for my birthday. Thanks guys and I love you guys so much.. MUACKSSSS....

FYP presentation eve~

I am so nervous and worry now.. How? Tomorrow gonna be my VIVA and I still do not know what should I do!! I am worry i will get shoot like using a machine gun as i saw his fire power today is so strong!!

Wish me luck my friend~

Rainbow~

Is been long time I din update my blog due to the heavy load of assignments, midterm, fyp and educational purpose's blog.

Last week when I was hanging out with friends to buy my dinner and I saw this ::

Yeap, it was a rainbow. It was so beautiful and especially it was a completes one.

Yea, u might saying that it is normal or is ordinary to see a rainbow in sky especially after rain. But this is the complete rainbow which i never got the chance to see before. we even pass by under it which make us feel so excited.

Rainbow is form by the sevenfold of colours which most of the people know about it; red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. Don't you feel that it is so beautiful with those colours mixing up together? It was just like describing people's feeling; sad, happy, anger and etc.

And I had found my own rainbow. The rainbow which might not be complete, which might not as beautiful, which might not as colourful. But for me It is the Only Rainbow I wanna Own it.

Dedicated to my "dear lovely" housemate~

I respect those people who dare to voice out and not just backstabbing people..

IF you wanna backstab someone, please make the situation clear and ask FIRST then only do the blamming. Without any prove, please do not simple accuse or blame people. Use ur brain to think carefully..

U blame me for utube and make ur connection bad, then do you know that actually we suffered for bad connection for almost one sem because of your downloading and PPS?

OK, if you do not know the real situation? I will make it clear here, I DID NOT STREAM n WATCH THE UTUBE AT THE SAME TIME.. I STREAM WHEN YOU GUYS SLEEPING AND NOT AROUND!! So do you really see I stream and watch at the same time? If not, stop accusing people..

I know the room is hot however can u see there is limited space in the room? How u suppose to put another fan in that room? Not only you are the one that suffer from the heat.. I think everyone did, k?

yea, for the bad connection.. U complain u cant do your fyp.. We do have our fyp also and yet the connection is bad, but do we complain for anything? Please think carefully... U suffer for bad connection only for few days but we have been suffer it for almost one semester.. Do we complain about anything??

STRESS

Recently i can feel the stressfulness in him. I see him stressing himself everyday. I know this job is too hard for him and is over pushing him already. However I could not help him anything because I am so far away from him. That day i cried in front of him because i am too stress of my fyp but at the moment i did not know that he is stressing about his work even more and yet he is trying to console me.. I feel so ashamed of myself while he is so understandable and hiding all his stressfulness from me. I am sorry. Today, I finally know that he really very stress and tension for his job after he told me. I was so sad when i know that he trying so hard to get rid of his stress which haunted him so much recently. When he said when I am still in ti, i manage to help him to release some stress, i am starting to have tears. Because I know now i am in sabah and he will be feeling lonely with all the stress with him now which make me so heart pain to see him so suffer. I wish i am there to cheer him up but i cant.

So bei, if u reading this blog, i would like to tell you. Go ahead with wat u want to do, do not force yourself to do something which you do not like it. I will supporting you all the way and wat i want you to do now is

QUIT THE JOB if it is stressing you so much. Although it's pay high but i buy away your happiness which i dowan it to be happen. so bei, go ahead to quit the job!!!!!

I love you...