Song of the day..

~The Rose~

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to blead

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of wakingthat never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

Happy 22nd Burthday to Myself~~

Finally, I pass by Parallel exam and so do my 22nd Birthday.. So sad because I'm finally turning to 22 already.. T_T

Firstly I wan to thanks to my bb hubby for the surprise he gave me straight on the 12am of my birthday.. It was really get me a shock because I did not know that he will give me surprise. He told me that he went for bath then I was suddenly dc which mean my video call stopped.. I still blame him for bath so slow and scared that will missed the 12am wish. However, I feel so touching because when I video call back with him, it was dark in his room and I saw CANDLES!!! I wonder did he really go n buy a cake? Then only I realise he put those candles on a CHIPSMORE.. So funny but it is so sweet.. I never thought he will give me that surprise..

Candles on the Chipsmore and Birthday Song that he sang to me.. Oh my, how I wish I am there with him at the moment.. I miss him..

Then, I would like to thanks to my housemates.. Thanks to them for giving me such a surprise birthday.. I always laugh when I think back Cheok Hoong reaction when he saw me and he could not do anything at the moment.. ESP he is wearing a mask.. Is so funny and memorable birthday experience I had..

I would also thanks to my Parents and brother. Thanks daddy and mummy, although u guys are not around with me in this Birthday again but I can always feel the existence of u guys in my heart.. I love you all..

Last but not least, I gotta thanks to all my friends out there who wished me for my birthday. Thanks guys and I love you guys so much.. MUACKSSSS....

FYP presentation eve~

I am so nervous and worry now.. How? Tomorrow gonna be my VIVA and I still do not know what should I do!! I am worry i will get shoot like using a machine gun as i saw his fire power today is so strong!!

Wish me luck my friend~

Rainbow~

Is been long time I din update my blog due to the heavy load of assignments, midterm, fyp and educational purpose's blog.

Last week when I was hanging out with friends to buy my dinner and I saw this ::

Yeap, it was a rainbow. It was so beautiful and especially it was a completes one.

Yea, u might saying that it is normal or is ordinary to see a rainbow in sky especially after rain. But this is the complete rainbow which i never got the chance to see before. we even pass by under it which make us feel so excited.

Rainbow is form by the sevenfold of colours which most of the people know about it; red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. Don't you feel that it is so beautiful with those colours mixing up together? It was just like describing people's feeling; sad, happy, anger and etc.

And I had found my own rainbow. The rainbow which might not be complete, which might not as beautiful, which might not as colourful. But for me It is the Only Rainbow I wanna Own it.

Dedicated to my "dear lovely" housemate~

I respect those people who dare to voice out and not just backstabbing people..

IF you wanna backstab someone, please make the situation clear and ask FIRST then only do the blamming. Without any prove, please do not simple accuse or blame people. Use ur brain to think carefully..

U blame me for utube and make ur connection bad, then do you know that actually we suffered for bad connection for almost one sem because of your downloading and PPS?

OK, if you do not know the real situation? I will make it clear here, I DID NOT STREAM n WATCH THE UTUBE AT THE SAME TIME.. I STREAM WHEN YOU GUYS SLEEPING AND NOT AROUND!! So do you really see I stream and watch at the same time? If not, stop accusing people..

I know the room is hot however can u see there is limited space in the room? How u suppose to put another fan in that room? Not only you are the one that suffer from the heat.. I think everyone did, k?

yea, for the bad connection.. U complain u cant do your fyp.. We do have our fyp also and yet the connection is bad, but do we complain for anything? Please think carefully... U suffer for bad connection only for few days but we have been suffer it for almost one semester.. Do we complain about anything??

STRESS

Recently i can feel the stressfulness in him. I see him stressing himself everyday. I know this job is too hard for him and is over pushing him already. However I could not help him anything because I am so far away from him. That day i cried in front of him because i am too stress of my fyp but at the moment i did not know that he is stressing about his work even more and yet he is trying to console me.. I feel so ashamed of myself while he is so understandable and hiding all his stressfulness from me. I am sorry. Today, I finally know that he really very stress and tension for his job after he told me. I was so sad when i know that he trying so hard to get rid of his stress which haunted him so much recently. When he said when I am still in ti, i manage to help him to release some stress, i am starting to have tears. Because I know now i am in sabah and he will be feeling lonely with all the stress with him now which make me so heart pain to see him so suffer. I wish i am there to cheer him up but i cant.

So bei, if u reading this blog, i would like to tell you. Go ahead with wat u want to do, do not force yourself to do something which you do not like it. I will supporting you all the way and wat i want you to do now is

QUIT THE JOB if it is stressing you so much. Although it's pay high but i buy away your happiness which i dowan it to be happen. so bei, go ahead to quit the job!!!!!

I love you...

Trying hard...

I was trying hard not to miss him that much but it failed. Because every single second i am still missing him. I am not used to this life anymore.. Once, i get used with it when i am in sabah. However this time, i dunno why i just dun feel like going back there and i want to be here, be with his side. I am missing him all the time.. 2ml i am going to fly back to sabah, a place which i hate to be there so much. I am so stupid, i actually waited him for the whole day. Waited for some miracle to be happen. Waited he was just lying to me that he is working 2day and give me a surprise that he appear suddenly in front of my door. However, whatever i waited for is just a dream. Heart was painful coz i din wanted to leave him without seeing him the day before. But i understand that he actually did his best ady. He ady took 2 days leave just to accompany me. I understand in my mind but not in my heart because it always feeling so pain deep inside.

I will be missing you.....