STRESS

Recently i can feel the stressfulness in him. I see him stressing himself everyday. I know this job is too hard for him and is over pushing him already. However I could not help him anything because I am so far away from him. That day i cried in front of him because i am too stress of my fyp but at the moment i did not know that he is stressing about his work even more and yet he is trying to console me.. I feel so ashamed of myself while he is so understandable and hiding all his stressfulness from me. I am sorry. Today, I finally know that he really very stress and tension for his job after he told me. I was so sad when i know that he trying so hard to get rid of his stress which haunted him so much recently. When he said when I am still in ti, i manage to help him to release some stress, i am starting to have tears. Because I know now i am in sabah and he will be feeling lonely with all the stress with him now which make me so heart pain to see him so suffer. I wish i am there to cheer him up but i cant.

So bei, if u reading this blog, i would like to tell you. Go ahead with wat u want to do, do not force yourself to do something which you do not like it. I will supporting you all the way and wat i want you to do now is

QUIT THE JOB if it is stressing you so much. Although it's pay high but i buy away your happiness which i dowan it to be happen. so bei, go ahead to quit the job!!!!!

I love you...

Trying hard...

I was trying hard not to miss him that much but it failed. Because every single second i am still missing him. I am not used to this life anymore.. Once, i get used with it when i am in sabah. However this time, i dunno why i just dun feel like going back there and i want to be here, be with his side. I am missing him all the time.. 2ml i am going to fly back to sabah, a place which i hate to be there so much. I am so stupid, i actually waited him for the whole day. Waited for some miracle to be happen. Waited he was just lying to me that he is working 2day and give me a surprise that he appear suddenly in front of my door. However, whatever i waited for is just a dream. Heart was painful coz i din wanted to leave him without seeing him the day before. But i understand that he actually did his best ady. He ady took 2 days leave just to accompany me. I understand in my mind but not in my heart because it always feeling so pain deep inside.

I will be missing you.....