it's finally come~

2day was a bad day for me, i am so bad luck trough out the whole day.. feel so depressed feel so helpless.. morning, i split something on my bed sheet so i have it 2wash the bed sheet n bed n comforter. i was so fed up at tat moment, wonder y am i so bad luck. but the bad luck haven end, it bring forward 2the evening. Saf, my bf came 2find me at noon. He want me 2acc him to cut his hair, the salon din open so i decided 2went for drive tru Mcd for my lunch. Who knws rain starting 2pour and mum called n find me while i am at town, so i hv 2ask my bf 2rush back. while Saf was rushing back, the coke suddenly pour over his car. No matter how, i ask him not2 worry and i wil settle for him after reach my home. act i ady starting 2feel weird wit all the incident tat happen on 2day. all the bad things came in the same time making me so stress.

The main problem finally comes. which is when Saf in front my house while v cleaning, my mum back 2fetch my neighbour aunty 2settle some problem. She saw us, she act nothing which makes me even more worried. I dunno how, dunno wat 2do. i was blank, i needed help so much at tat moment but no one can help me. not even him. but i knw it wasn't his problem, he cant do much thing coz i dowan us 2hurt mum. She back, i tried 2chat wit her. yet, she act differently this time, she scold me. This time it really hurt me alot, is alot.. wat ever she said make me feel so disappointed. She ask me 2choose between her n Saf, if i choose him she will not acknowledge me as her daughter. Yet, if want she 2accept him except she die. I wonder y she can say till like this? izit a big problem just to be with him? he is not a bad guy so y u jz cant accept him?

i love my mum but i wonder y she can treat me like this. izit really to be faith tat i hv 2 break up wit him? but he treat me very good and i love him. act i very hope that he can do something, i feel so unprotected but i un i un.. is not his fault, so nvm.. i will settle it my own since Mrs kok oso say is my family problem. i think wateva decision i make, i need 2 bare it myself.

i believe HE knw hw much i suffer, please do leave some sympathy for me..